And here we are, mid-September. However did that happen?
I seemed to be a bit late with the surge of energy that most people experience - or say they do - at the beginning of September. It’s the whole, new-notebooks, freshly-sharpened pencils feeling…that has everyone starting new things or breathing new life into old projects etc. Somehow that motivation evaded me until just recently.
Not that it helps anyone to feel as if they must conform to other people’s schedules or seasons. Because it’s yet another stick to beat ourselves with and let’s face it, there’s no shortage of flogging options. BUT, this stay-in-your-own-lane, move-at-your-own-pace lesson is one I’m finally absorbing — more from necessity than anything else as I seem to be strapped into the hormonal rollercoaster of perimenopause. (Apparently with no option of disembarking until the ride comes to a complete stop…:)
So yes, slowly coming back to the world, after what seemed like a very busy summer season..although not one to which I could point a finger and say “we did this, this and this”. All in all though, it was a good ‘un and I’m glad I gave it my full time and attention. After several seasons of grief and trauma, this summer felt like a gentle exhale.
In other news….I’ve been squirreled away in my study, banging away at the keyboard, doing what’s turning out to be a complete re-write of my first novel - Skelly. I have notes and outlines to apply to the second and third in the trilogy so will tackle them next. I have no immediate plans/deadlines as to when I’ll be re-publishing them, but next spring seems to be a reasonable option. I seem to have found my groove again - after much wringing of hands and gnashing of teeth. Not to say there isn’t still a lot of that, but at least now it’s because OF the writing rather than for a lack thereof.
Anyway, enough about that.
There’s lots more percolating here, chez nous, some big and somewhat terrifying changes ahead, but those which are the fruit of a long summer of introspection. Terrifying and yet also exciting. Stay tuned for details…which shall dribble out in the coming weeks.
…honestly, I couldn’t be more thrilled. It’s all of my favourite concepts and philosophies melding under one fabulous, earth-loving umbrella. You can be sure I’ll be writing more on this in the weeks and months to come…there is inspiration and resolution by the metric tonne to be had with this.
Right, so that’s where I am - poised on the threshold, once again. As the season shifts without, so it does within. Which seems very proper and as-it-should-be…without feeling forced or contrived…or decorated with free-range feathers (on sale now!) and grass-fed twigs (locally-sourced!) - snark.
I’d like to think I’m coming at the changes and shifts with a slightly more measured approach than has been my usual. I’m a little wary of making grand announcements and proclamations — you likely won’t hear about my novels again until they’re ready to be released :D, and I’m obviously being annoyingly vague — because I’ve had so many false starts in the past, which, as an accumulated heap, are rather demoralizing. This time, though, feels a little different. Age and experience actually do have their benefits..and I’m far better at riding the waves of mood and energy than I used to be. I also have the immeasurable gift of knowing what truly matters to me — what I value and what my priorities are…and that’s not something I’ve always known. I mean, you think you know, but you don’t really…especially when, like me, your magpie brain is easily distracted by All the Shiny Baubles.
So I shall leave it here for now….rambling and mildly incoherent, vague and exasperatingly cryptic…but that’s me and I don’t see that changing any time soon!
I hope this finds you well…..fully immersed in the magic and wonder….